This blog today is really for me more than anyone. Yesterday I was very frustrated by my lack of movement on the scale lately. I realize bodies hit plateaus and this is normal but I made a decision yesterday to increase my daily activity and this morning I decided I may have to temporarily give up alcohol. I don't drink a lot and I am far from an alcoholic. I just don't know that I need the extra calories from alcohol and it seems like when I do drink, I gain weight and spend half the next week just getting back to the point I was before. For those of you under the wrong assumption that I am more fun/crazy when drunk, that's not true. I am just as crazy sober and way more fun. :)
I know I am obsessing....just a little. Last night I had a dream that I was a contestant on the Biggest Loser and Bob & Dolvett, the trainers for those of you who don't watch, were kicking my hiney. Just for the record, I would love to be on the Biggest Loser and get to spend all day killing myself in the gym. I will have to make do with a couple hours after work and trying to do the CrossFit WOD. I feel crazy thinking I can actually do the WOD but if I don't push myself, how do I know what I can accomplish?
I love how God knows just the right time to have someone tell me how great I am looking and/or how awesome I am doing. It always happens when I feel really bad about myself, like this morning.
Honestly, I am not feeling sorry for myself, I don't want anyone reading this to think that. I just needed someplace to vent my frustrations. When you are changing your life and it doesn't happen quickly enough sometimes it becomes overwhelming.
Now some visual inspiration. Sorry, I forgot my iPad so this is from my phone. Hopefully there aren't too many typos.
I know I am obsessing....just a little. Last night I had a dream that I was a contestant on the Biggest Loser and Bob & Dolvett, the trainers for those of you who don't watch, were kicking my hiney. Just for the record, I would love to be on the Biggest Loser and get to spend all day killing myself in the gym. I will have to make do with a couple hours after work and trying to do the CrossFit WOD. I feel crazy thinking I can actually do the WOD but if I don't push myself, how do I know what I can accomplish?
I love how God knows just the right time to have someone tell me how great I am looking and/or how awesome I am doing. It always happens when I feel really bad about myself, like this morning.
Honestly, I am not feeling sorry for myself, I don't want anyone reading this to think that. I just needed someplace to vent my frustrations. When you are changing your life and it doesn't happen quickly enough sometimes it becomes overwhelming.
Now some visual inspiration. Sorry, I forgot my iPad so this is from my phone. Hopefully there aren't too many typos.
Sorry some of these images are so bad. They looked normal on the phone.
ReplyDeleteI weighed in this morning and i was feeling the same thing.
ReplyDeleteAw, Monica. Stay positive!!!
DeleteThat is what friends are for- an outlet to vent!! :)
ReplyDeleteSorry you are having a rough day- I hope it gets better. Just remember you are beautiful, inside and out!! :)
XOXO!
Thanks Rachel. It isn't that I am having a rough day it is that I am making this too hard. Story of my life. Silly me. You are a good friend. :)
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