Have you ever?

I have not been feeling well lately. Spending the last two days in bed has given me a lot of time to think. A year ago tomorrow. A year ago tomorrow....I wish I could change things but I can't and if I could I don't know what I would do differently so I thought what I really need to do is shake things up.



I was texting a friend today about the idea of doing on-line dating but the truth is, I don't want to meet anyone that way. I want to meet someone and just love or hate them and go from there. So, I decided against it because even though they are making me an offer that is really good, I just don't want to answer any more surveys about myself.



Here is the thing I realized. I am not single because there is something wrong with me. I am single because there is something right. I want to meet someone who loves me. I want to meet someone who appreciates me. I want to meet someone who is quirky and crazy in a good way. I am not broken. I am not messed up. I am not crazy. I am just alone because I don't make mistakes that cost me my happiness and someone else's. That is a good thing.



I realized that what I need more than anything is to get away, make new friends, and have new experiences. I want to leave the past behind. It is time to forget the hurt and move on to something better and someone better.




The amazing thing is that the moment I realize this I felt immediately free for the 1st time in a year. No more regrets. No more kicking myself for being a fool. No more hiding.


Have you ever travelled alone? I am thinking of doing just that. It isn't that I don't want to travel with my friends, I would love to and I am sure we will at some point but they are in a different place and on a different schedule right now. I need this to happen this year for my sake. So I am going to take some time and do some research.


Alaska and Puerto Rico are two places I am thinking about.


I would probably take a cruise in Alaska. There are some travel organizations that specialize in singles travel. No, not the Love Boat. Julie will not be my cruise director. Just groups that help singles travel safely. That's what I want. I don't want to end up a missing person on Investigation Discovery. I want to have a nice trip where I can have fun and make friends, safely. Puerto Rico could be really amazing too. Either way is a win.



It is something new. Something I have never done before. Something outside my box. I am single, young, healthy, and ready to live and love again. Let's roll!


So, where would you go and have you or would you travel alone?



Simply,
Laura
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