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Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Nowhere to hide



I am stuck right now.  So stuck I can't write.
So stuck I can't think
I had a conversation with a friend last night and realized this morning that I am right back where I was when I was 19 years old.  I have made no progress.  I have learned nothing.  I have gotten nowhere.  I feel the exact same way about myself that I did then and I have no idea how to change it or fix it and I don't know where to go to make it better.  I have done everything I am supposed to do.  I have taken all the magic pills.  I have sat on all the magic sofas.  I have prayed. The pain doesn't go away.  The pain never stops.   I am lost.  I am am simply lost.

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  1. I'm sad to read this :( I hope things have gotten a little better since you posted this... But I hope you're just having a bad day and tomorrow you can wake up and see how amazing and positive and inspirational you are! I have loved getting to know you and you are such a sweet and kind person and even if you feel lost.. know it is a temporary feeling. I am also feeling very negative and lost lately and I am in a dark place and I have to constantly remind myself "this is temporary. things will get better." and just keep positive chica!!

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    1. Oh Jessica I am so sorry! I meant to respond to this! Thank you my friend. I am trying to stay positive. Just going through some rough stuff. I'll be fine. :-)

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