Sometimes in the middle of a normal, hectic week of crazy work while a report or three are due, right before a holiday, just when you are really behind and trying desperately to get caught up and not go crazy and thinking of the lamb cake you have to bake this weekend, the eggs that have to be colored, the chocolate cupcakes you promised your youngest niece because she bravely gave up sweets for Lent, and the endless planning you have to make for a one day camping trip, life throws you a curve ball that hits you in the gut and puts everything in perspective. That happened this week.
What I remembered is that life is all too short and nobody, no matter how young they are is guaranteed tomorrow. Things get left unsaid sometimes. Disagreements that cause friends to stop talking end up being unresolved because pride gets in the way and before you know it, it's too late because God has another plan. Family members let things come between them that don't matter and lose precious years.
I have lost friends that I miss, one was almost like a sister to me, in a way. I dream about her sometimes. I miss her dearly. I love her and I always will. The hurt is gone and now I am just sad that I lost my friend.
Sometimes, God gives you a chance to fix things, sometimes, God expects you to make a chance before it is too late. Sometimes, as in the case of some of my other lost friendships, there is nothing left to fix. I guess what I am saying is that when you have an opportunity to say I'm sorry for being stupid sometimes and I'm sorry for some of the misunderstanding, I'm sorry for taking things too personally and not talking things out better and I am sorry for the hurt feelings on both sides, say it!
I can't fix the past. I don't know if I can fix the future either. I miss my friend and I don't want to spend the rest of my life thinking about her and dreaming about fixing the friendship instead of trying. I just don't know where to start. I do know this, I don't want to regret someday not trying. I don't want to miss sharing the moments of life that matter.
Hug the people you love today and tell them you love them. Don't take for granted you will get the chance again. There is no ordinary day and there is no ordinary moment of life. Every moment is precious.
Simply,
Laura
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Very well said. I hope that you and your friend can work things out!
ReplyDeleteThanks! Whatever happens, I'm happy. :-)
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