I woke up this morning to my regular morning phone call and then the news. One of these is better.
The news was on because I fell asleep watching the Broncos but the first story I heard after I hung up was a crazy story about women buying used positive pregnancy tests on Craig's List.
My reaction: What the WHAT!?
I have had a broken heart...who hasn't? It sucks. It hurts like Hell actually. I cried my eyes out. I prayed to die. I curled up into a little ball. I even turned my anger on myself but I never, ever thought about trapping the guy or even getting revenge. Why? Because even in my despair I had enough self-respect to know that I deserve more than someone who is stuck with me. I never, ever want someone to feel like they owe me or are stuck by circumstance. They are free to walk away. When Robb and I broke up there was a scare. He would have never known if that turned out more. I have also had a "but for the grace of God go I" moment. Can I just tell you God is good?
I am hopefully older than the stupid, childish women who are buying these tests and I am obviously a little wiser but here is what I know: God has a plan and His plan is always better. People come in and out of your life for a reason and you choose what to do with the lesson you have been given.
When a good person comes into your life you will appreciate them so much more and you will fight for them and with them and talk to them about everything and the others won't matter. Things you don't agree on wont seem as important and you will find a way to overcome the problems. Don't get me wrong, they will drive you crazy and you will want to strangle them but your life would suck without them. Until you find that person, why would you ever want to be stuck with someone less? When you find that person you will know you were playing in the minor leagues before and now you have hit the big leagues.
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