Easter Weekend Happiness!

What a weekend!  Kentucky lost!  The Lady Irish are on the way to the National Championship, and BASEBALL is back!  Greatness!!!  Aside from that.....

Old and tired 

I swear I didn't stop all weekend.   Between a marathon shopping spree at Walmart Saturday morning.  (Rant Alert: I hate shopping at Walmart.  It is such a beating.  I do not understand why they can't put the same floor plan in all stores.  Why must each be different.  It drives me crazy! I promise you it does not encourage me to shop more it just makes me a bitter, angry shopper),  catfishing on Lake Lavon all day Saturday afternoon (the fish weren't biting but that didn't stop the Easter miracle. We threw back the two we caught and they have a 2nd chance at life as we know it!) and beginning the refinishing of my old table Saturday night.

This is just a peek.  The legs are already color 2 and the top is being "distressed"

This table actually belongs to my husband pre-me and it has 6 matching chairs but I am not hand painting those bad boys.   The paint sprayer will be in full effect for that.  Once I finish the table, I will decide on what color I want to do the chairs but right now I am leaning toward a black chair with light distressing.  Anyhow, this table caused me a few problems.   First, it is veneer.  Second, I did not know it was veneer.  (It was hubs table from his 1st marriage and he doesn't have a memory of important stuff like that but I bet he can tell you all about the pig he shot 20 years ago! XO)   I should have known but they did a good job of faking it.  Even underneath they made it look like it is solid wood.  SIGH!   Anyway, I have something awesome planned...I just wanted to give you a peek.

Easter at our new neighbors 

Easter Sunday while I worked on the table some more, hubs got ready for a party at the neighbors.  My mom had some tragic home improvement problems and so there was no Easter at her house and while we could have done it at mine, the neices and nephews were scattered at odd ex-spouses houses so it was just one of those years where everyone did their own thing.  In a side note, my nephew won his baseball championship this weekend!  So proud of the big guy.  He is becoming quite a young man.  

This was the kid race

So we took fish, hush puppies, and french fries to the neighbors and they had a variety of Mexican goodness including this amazing chicken I am still thinking about and which they confided, I can get at the Mexican meat market 5 miles down the road.   I have been there before but now I know what to get.  Winning!!  I totally believe in learning about different cultures and experiencing the best of all of them and sharing them.  My family is Hungarian and German.  We have certain foods we traditionally make from those cultures.  Where would we be without spaghetti and tortillas and brats? I am so grateful to my neighbors for sharing thier amazing food traditions and for warning me not to put too much of the red sauce on my fajitas.  I was already afraid.  LOL

And this is my kid

Aside from amazing food they were incredibly welcoming and it was so much fun to see a big family celebrate together.   They had all these games and kids running around and it reminded me of my family life when I was a kid and we would go to Thanksgiving at my Aunt Peg and Uncle Walter's. Families are awesome!

Getting ready for the egg toss

Oh and my big and little kid had a great time!

Somehow the egg broke all over hubs face. LOL

I feel so blessed to have been able to spend the holiday with new neighbors and learn so much!   I am so grateful for my family and the fact we are all healthy and things are going pretty well.  I am blessed with just a bunch of positive and I focusing on the blessings.   It is so easy to get bogged down with the trials of life but my hubs looked at me the other day and said something about how things are going in the right direction lately and I said that yes, we are finally getting things in place.  When you sell a house, marry, and buy a house in a month it takes a while to feel at peace.  We are 7 months in now and we are finally getting a routine in place and feeling our way in our home.  Is everything perfect?  No!  He would have rather I spent Saturday night unpacking and tossing stuff out of boxes in the spare bedroom than refinishing that table, I am sure.   I, on the other hand, prefer having things around me look pretty so I can then focus on the hidden fugly! :)

Apparently 3 legs are not better than 2

Did I forget to mention the neighbors invited us to go with them to Monterey?   They are from there and go often and they couldn't believe I have never been to Mexico so they want take hubs and me and show off Mexico.  We are totally on board with this.  It sounds like so much fun!  

This week is full of softball with the kiddo, me picking up a fantastic new project to redo when I finish my table (it's a surprise),  Rangers home opener for me Friday and it looks like the Duck Commander 500 is happening Saturday.   This will be my 1st NASCAR and I am so excited.  First of all, I love Duck Dynasty.   Second, I love Jeff Gordon and it is his last  year.    OMG!  

Happy Opening Day to all my Texas Rangers fans.   

So, how was your Easter?  Did you receive any blessings?

It's Okay #1:

It's OK Thursday was one of my favorite blog links but it's been a year or more since the final link up and I can't live without it so I am dusting it off.  Join me if you feel like it.

Here's what is Okay with me this week:

Pretty much

Printfection makes this shirt and it's Okay that I feel like they were thinking of me when they printed it.   If I had a dollar for all the times it wasn't my fault, I would have $5.00.

It's okay that since I have gotten married basically the only jewlery I wear my engagement and wedding rings.  I don't take them off and I just don't think about jewlery anymore.

My V-Day gift is the 2nd band 

It's okay that I already am wearing my Valentine day present right?

It's okay that my fingers look so incredibly fat!

It's okay that I am now on idea number 3 for the coffee table (which used to be a dining table) I am refinishing.  You may never get the DIY blog I planned but I just can't seem to get this stupid thing the way I want it and I refuse to rest until I do.

It's okay that I am super tired of the games people play.  I am just going to do my thing my way and be true to myself.

It's okay that I am trying to get a business started (not the blog, don't worry) and that I am frustrated with the lack of time I have to devote to it.

It's okay that I am probably not going to be at Rangers Opening Day this year.  I have been every year for about 10 years.  Okay, maybe it isn't okay but it is a fact I can't change.

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It's okay that I want to start a campaign for a FRIENDS reunion by cutting my hair in "The Rachel".  God I miss that show!

It's okay that I am feeling alienated from almost everyone use to know.  I don't particuarly know why but I just feel like I am on an island somewhere.

It's okay that my Whole 30 has gotten a little off track in the last week.  The superbowl was not my friend when it came to eating.

It's okay that I have way better ideas for this post when I am driving down the road then I do when I sit down to write it.

It's okay that I seriously have an addiction to Pinterest.  I get a ton of useful DIY projects, recipes, and dangerous  useful ideas there and I just can't stop!

It's okay that I have spent a lot of time and energy on this blog lately.   I feel like I have finally gotten into a groove and I have gotten some amazing feedback.   I am constantly looking for ways to improve the blog so if anyone has any suggestions or something just really bugs you about my site, send me a note.

It's okay that this explaines exactly where I am in life right now.

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So what's okay with you?

Blog Redo Circa 2015 and Rangers BABY!

Forever, and ever, and ever I have been trying to figure out how to get a menu bar at the top of my blogger.  Silly, I know but it is something I never had time to look into.

For 2015 I really wanted to simplify my life and part of that was doing a really simply Blog redo. (How do you like the cleaner, newer, fresher me?)

So I googled, I you-tubed, and I finally figured out how to make that silly menu bar work for me!

Now if I could just figure out the gadget I need to get all my social media in one cute little box on the side with the right buttons to get everyone to Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, and Pinterest and how to make a button for my blog, (I figured out the button part...so just my picture now works as a button!) my blog life would be fulfilled.  ;Yes, I played with it all at lunch and figured it out! Well, as much so as it can be until I actually take the leap and pay someone to redo the whole blog.  That is coming in the future but right now, we have things like water pipes to fix and floors to refinish so priority isn't a new-fancy blog design.

I am not promising this is the final 2015 change, only that whatever 2015 holds in store for my blog, it will be much easier to navigate.  I am putting my blog big-girl panties on and getting ready to launch a whole new side of this blog.

Make sure to check out some of my favorite blogs where I give a shout out to the women who inspire me to be a better blogger and are just some awesome friends.  A few don't even know I exist but they give me all kinds of crazy ideas and I wanted to share.

So, it is almost the weekend and while I have been busy working on my blog in my freetime...

I haven't forgotten to plan for some weekend time.  Except that my weekend time is going to be rudely interrupted by work.  Yes, I am going to be working Saturday.   It is a general pain but a good thing in the long run!

Meanwhile, on my Twitter feed I have noticed an odd happenstance. 

There is tons of baseball talk starting to happen.  I love this time of year.  Everyone has a real hope that their team our RANGERS are going to finally put together the team that will take them all the way (back) to the World Series and win the elusive 'all'.  I am ready for the crack of the bat, the smell of the grass, the sound of balls hitting leather gloves. It is almost Time Texas!

Happy Friday all!  

Sometime Life throws a Curve:Losing Richard Durrett & Life

Last night Rangers Nation lost a one of the best reporters the team has and local media lost a friend but for a family the loss was profound a husband and father of two and a half. Richard Durrett left too soon at 38 and expecting his 3rd child but reading the love his fellow reporters/friends shared for him, the heartbreak of fans who interacted with him and knowing the pain of losing a parent I was reminded again that life is sometimes too short and God expects us all to take the chance every day to be our best and given the opportunity, do it with love. Richard apparently did this, to his credit.

I don't have any profound advice for life that hasn't been said before but I can support a few things that have:

Make amends if you can, if you can't make peace with your past before it eats you alive. Forgive others and forgive yourself.

Take a chance if love comes your way because it may not come twice, it may not show up the way you expect it or in a neat little box and believe me, no matter how many people think you are doing the wrong thing, if you think it is worth it, it is worth it.

Finally, God hears all of your prayers and answers them in His time and His way and while His way may not be the way you expect, it turns out to be just right. I know, because for years I was praying for the same thing and He answered that prayer by introducing me to my best friend and (later) his daughter ten months ago. He was nothing I was looking for and everything I needed. God is funny that way. He knows better.



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Mobile Monday: Turkey Hunting, Baseball and Easter

Thursday we headed out to East Texas to do a little Turkey hunting. Ok, "we" went camping. I basically was in charge of finding fire wood and guarding the stuff while "they" went turkey hunting as 'this dog don't hunt' so to speak but waking up Good Friday to this view totally makes up for the 'cold-night-sleeping-on-an-air-mattress-I-think-I-am-a-princess-and-believe-a-motel-is-roughing-it' girl. That's not really true. I don't need a hotel room but I would prefer one, for sure! My sister in law and I were talking on Easter about this. She loves to hunt but she agrees the best option is a motel room somewhere with plumbing and a shower. It's the little things in life. :-) Anyway, it was beautiful as you can see and I heard my first Turkey and while my brother and my guy think it's funny, I honestly thought at first that they sounded like a barking dog. They are incredibly loud though and really pretty. The colors are amazing in the feathers. I have never imagined the colors of browns. Just beautiful.


Saturday we had baseball tickets and it was a totally fun first time at Rangers Ballpark for my young friend which was fun to share. It was also Yu Darvish Bobblehead night. We had a great time and the ballpark was rocking. There was a couple behind us that got engaged.


Nolan Ryan and Sam Houston made an appearance. Oh, and the Rangers won! Earlier in the day we had made cupcakes, colored eggs, and I decorated the lamb cake for Sunday. We had the first Easter egg hunt. It was a super busy day!


Sunday was all about the family stuff. We had more egg hunts, dinner, and the cake, which turned out...not too shabby. The kid LOVED it and that's what mattered. I want to make the tradition my grandma started something to carry on.

I hope everyone was able to find blessing this weekend.



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Opening Day Link Up: the Importance of Baseball, Love, & Fashion

I'm linking up today for a special Baseball Opening Day Party with Venus Trapped in Mars and Marty with the Party and I thought I would share some all to often overlooked important Fashion Tips for your above average fans. I mean those fans who know that Opening Day is Christmas Morning! I also am sharing with you my love of the game so guys, skip to the bottom!













For the occasion today, I am sporting my team colors although this is not the all important Opening Day shirt. That one will not make it's appearance until Monday.









And the mandatory "I'm going to Opening Day!" Ticket shot. These tickets are almost impossible to come by! I get them with my season plan.







A few things about proper fan accessories: too much is just enough!







I Ranger-ify every part of my life!







From my Christmas







To my office.







And when it comes to being a fan, I am nothing but a big kid!







I even sport my colors at concerts.







This was Rascal Flatts 2 summers ago and one of my Rangers blankets and handbags went with me!







People know I am a big fan so they give me stuff, like baseball dinnerware!

















I have been known to bake special Rangers Opening Day cupcakes. They are the BOMB! (Alcohol infused, naturally!)







Of course I have shoes that I painted. I actually have a new pair planned for this season but they won't make an appearance for Opening Day this year because I haven't started on them yet. :(

And hats (with my buddy Trish).



For baseball fans there is no day more exciting than Opening Day. Everything is new and fresh and every team has hope, even the Cubs! The grass smells a little nicer, the tailgate party is a little louder and the fans all love one another. (Unless Phillies fans show up. We won't love them.)



I started out a Cubs fan when I was a kid and my first game was at Wrigley when I was about 8. I have always loved baseball better. When I was little, I would go into my grandfathers bedroom and watch the Cubs play on a black and white TV with rabbit ears while the rest of the family would watch the Fighting Irish play football on fall Saturday afternoons. I didn't care that the Cubs were out of the race, I just wanted to see the game!



We moved to Texas in 1980 but before we moved, we visited at spring break. My first memory was of Buddy Bell bat night at the old Arlington Stadium (RIP). I still have the bat and if you look really hard you can still see the signature. It has been by my bed for years for "home security".



My Rangers love really took off during the V-ball days when Bobby Valentine was manager. That was the late 80's when names like Ruben Sierra, Nolan Ryan and Julio Franco dotted the lineup card. I was obsessed. When I left for the University of Texas, one of the last things I did was drive to Arlington, where the new Ballpark was going up, and try to decide if Austin was the place for me or I should stay closer to home. To decide I had to be with my current love, the Rangers to help me through it. Tough call but I left and they stayed faithful and pretty awful!



Luckily, I could get most games in Austin and I watched and sometimes I drove home to see the Rangers...oh and my family.



My brother gave me my first mini-plan 10-game pack in 1996. I cried. For most of the time since I have had a 10 or usually 20 game pack of tickets. These tickets get me Opening Day and post season options. In the last few years I have averaged well over 30 games a season, not including Post-season. The Ballpark is my second home.



I have sat at the Ballpark and cried over a stupid man who broke my fragile heart, celebrated winning our 1st playoff game ever, celebrated winning our AL Championships, and several World Series games. This season I get to go to Opening Day with the love of my life on his birthday!



This game, this team has been a better friend than some of my long gone friends and a better lover than all but one. Can you be romantic about baseball? Sure you can. At one point I had a baseball themed wedding planned. I don't think that will happen now but I am going to hold out for a Rangers wedding cake should the day come.





My life has become full of a lot of things in the 35 years since I was first introduced to the game at Wrigley Field. People have come and gone. Homes have changed. The world has changed in ways I can't describe. (Microwaves, cell phones, laptops, iPads, GPS, and who knows what else?) but baseball has always been there just like James Earl Jones said!













So, I hope to see you at Rangers Ballpark this summer! Come say hi, and invite me to your tailgate! I'll bring the cupcakes!



Go Rangers!!



XO









Simply,

Laura

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Enjoy the Ride!

Simply,
Laura

My Big Fat Twitter Weekend!!

Before any of my sensative crazy amazingTwitter friends get upset....I am not calling anyone fat...it was jammed packed with social activities and it is a play on that silly movie and well....Windex or something.  I don't know.




Friday:


Twitter I love you! I would have no life without you! No friends! No social life! I would be a hermit!

Friday the Fire Department came by because our building was not on fire but it thought it was. This was highly upsetting because the office is in Addison and I happen to know the Addison Fire Department are incredibly skilled  okay they are simply hot. Farmers Branch responded because Addison was busy putting out real fires. How rude!

Later I met up with Sandy and Janetta for Happy Hour at Flips in Grapevine, Rangers Baseball, Beeritas and some good old fashion girl talk which means, a little healthy man bashing and butt ogling and whatever it is that women of a certain age do. That means all females over 10.

I met Sandy and Janetta on Twitter and I must say it was love at first tweet. They are Rangers fans (of course). They are amazing! We had the best time talking and laughing and we may have a little fun poking fun at out favorite Twitter Police Officer=TPO. (You know who you are.) Thanks for keeping us laughing on Twitter by making fun of my typos. You suck rock TPO!

Saturday:



I slept in...all the way until 7:30 am! It was glorious until I woke up with a headache from my 2 drinks. When did 2 drinks give me a hangover? I suck!

Happily later the doorbell rang and the mailman left presents! Ok it is the kind I paid for but look!!! I was so excited because this was a BOGO. I bought the bag and got the shoes for free. Pretty cool how I managed to find a pair that matches. I tried to plan it that way. The wedges are super high which makes me like 6 foot tall but...whatever.



Saturday night I had tickets to the Rangers game. I was super excited because Pudge Rodriguez was being inducted into the Texas Rangers Hall of Fame. He is my Favorite. Ranger. Ever. I love him. Pudge has the best smile. I would kill for a Pudge behind the plate today. He had it all. One of the best there ever was. He could throw anyone out. He had power at the plate. He was a joy to watch. I feel blessed to have seen him play for 13 years as a Rangers fan and for 20 years period. I have never stopped loving him. He never stopped loving me. He told me so, Saturday (kinda) and he also told me I was part of the best fans in baseball. I knew that already and I don't actually care what some spoiled former Ranger player says about Rangers fans. I know the truth. I see the fans that sit out in 110 degree weather. I have been at the Ballpark in the hail storms.  I have waited through the 3 hour rain delays.  I call myself friend of some of the BEST FANS in baseball. Let me introduce you to some of the friends I played with Saturday! (All who I met originally on Twitter).


Eric and I met at Sherlocks Saturday and had drinks and dinner before the game. I didn't manage to get pictures of my Turkey sandwich or my Rita but Eric's burger with egg and bacon (which he said was really good!) was too amazing looking not to get it's own picture. Can I just say this guy is awesome.He is not afraid to order strange food and eat it even if he doesn't like it (even though he did.) He killed a spider protecting the entire female population of the bar (Swoon!) with his bare hand and this thing was a huge beast! Plus he managed to (try) and  battle  wits with me over college football teams (Eric is an Oklahoma Sooner and I am a Texas Longhorn) before I just told him I was ignoring him, at which point he informed me that meant he won, and I laughed, because that won't ever happen but I will let him think that...for now. We had a great time together and I am so happy to call him my friend! He is a lot silly and crazy but super fun.

It was raining at the Ballpark but we got to meet up with my friend Felicia who came in from Oklahoma. (Also a Sooner! I was surrounded but I fought them off! Hook 'em!) Felicia has the worst luck this year with games. She tries to come down and there are tornadoes. Luckily this time it was a pretty quick shower and she and her family got to see Pudge. We had a nice visit and I was lucky enough to meet her cousin and her mom.



I didn't get new pictures of everyone but I also got to see and get extra special hugs from my sweet friends above which starts out with my Aggie buddies (because having Sooner friends isn't painful enough) Erick & Chance.

-Erick who came in from Houston to see me. Ok, he didn't come in to see me but he did come by to say "Hi" so that's close, right? I talk to him even though he plans to work for the dark side someday when he graduates from Law School.  Well, Law School is kind of the dark side in training and the world needs more lawyers, right?  (Where is that sarcasm font?)

-Bestie: Camden and his Dad Chance: Cam is actually really shy and tries to hide from me but one of these days I am going to manage to buy  earn his undying affection through my natural charm (and gifts). In the meantime, Chance hugs will have to do.  Seriously, how cute is this picture of Cam and Chance. I have some of them at the Ballpark but this is my favorite picture of them.  I mean in spite of the fact that Chance has the poor taste to wear a Cowboys cap instead of a Rangers cap, the smile on his son's face is worth a million dollars and the smile on my friend's face isn't too shabby either. 

-My amazing girl Trish who at one point in the game offered to inspire the team by taking her top off causing Eric to nearly pass out and Leonys Martin to immediately drop a ball on the warning track. The Texas Rangers and the fans need you to keep the shirt on for the benefit of public safety Trish! Love this woman! She is cray!

-Nolan Ryan who had no clue I was there and doesn't know we are best friends but we are. We have been real close buds since I was an impressionable 18 year old kid and he saved my baseball team the 1st time. (Nolan has no Twitter or we would be Bestie I am sure!)

I had an amazing time with an amazing group of friends and even though my team didn't win I feel so incredibly happy to have so many special people in my life. I drove home being very thankful that God put all of these amazing people in my life that touched my weekend all because of a little thing called Twitter and a little team called the Texas Rangers. If I sat down and counted the blessings that those two things have brought into my life, it would be countless. There are too many friends to mention. too many special people. So many people in my life that I have come to love because of Twitter and the Rangers and there are honestly no regrets from any of the crazy people I have met! Not even the nut jobs I had to block. :-)


Sunday:




I went in to work. As you can see I was thrilled. After work I made a promise to myself to catch up on my 40 day challenge. I was 2 days behind from all the happy hours. I prayed but I was 2 days behind on the reading. I never don't pray! My days without morning prayer don't work. Then housework. Oh the thrill.

Just a couple of last thoughts......


Shout out to my friend Micah who had a Birthday Saturday!!! I also may have happened to meet her on Twitter and she may also happen to be a Texas Ranger fan....small world, right?  

Finally, If you think that is the end of my shout outs....one more.  You know my girl Rachel and I are going to Brad Paisley next weekend?  We haven't seen each other in almost 2 months.  I really have no clue why.  We live like 20 minutes from each other and work 5 minutes from each other and have the same 20 game plan to the Rangers game and we still haven't seen each other since the beginning of June but that changes next weekend.  Well, I bring this up because Rachel is one of my best friends too and we met....because of Twitter and the Texas Rangers.


So, how was your weekend?   Have you had any amazing relationships that started thanks to social media?






Simply,
Laura
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Friday Happy Hour: Therapy, Biking and Baseball

I'm not really at Happy Hour. I haven't even had a drink for 2 weeks. No, I am not suffering from some other addiction I haven't admitted to, yet. I just can't risk bringing on migraines right now with alcohol.




I started therapy this week. It is amazing how hearing something your friends and mother have been telling you (and maybe just maybe something I knew inside) for a year from a stranger who doesn't love you can really make you see reality and understand that sometimes it is ok that you tried. I finally realized this morning while driving to work I am done beating myself up for trying so hard. I had to try. I didn't try in the past and I beat myself up. I tried too hard and I beat myself up. Now, I am done beating myself up. I am glad I tried. It's ok that I tried. It's ok because there is nothing wrong with trying if you are the only one trying and it doesn't work. It's ok for a lot of reasons. Mostly it's ok because for the first time in so long I realized there really is nothing wrong with me.




I am going to blog another time about the steps I am taking to help with the bulimia. I only want to say this....I have purged one time since June 9th. That is the best I have done in a year. That is a huge baby step. I have also only binged one day in that time. (Yes the purge and binge happened the same day.) I am working really hard on making sure I eat (so everyone who is checking up on me....I am ok and I love you.) I also am working really hard on staying away from food that leads me to binges so if that means I don't eat pizza, ice cream, or chips...you are just going to have to trust me that that doesn't mean I am now not eating. I have been living with this for over 20 years and I may not have beaten it yet but I do know how to avoid some trigger foods it's the trigger feelings I have problems with.




Some of the saddest truth I had to admit to my therapist the other day was that I haven't been riding the last couple of months because I am ashamed of what I look like right now. Nobody wants to see my bratwurst legs in bike shorts. Well, I don't know what I am wearing but tomorrow I will be in Arlington on the trail with about 200 women riders and I just don't care. I miss my bike and I have to get past this mental block because biking is my favorite thing on earth and I will not wait until I like what I see in the mirror to get me some!




I just loved this and this is how I feel sometimes!




(Sharing my nephew and my mom from the game the other night!)
The Rangers are finally back on track...I hope. They are playing the hated Cardinals of St. Louis this weekend so we shall see.

TGIF everyone! Have a great weekend! Go get ya some!

Simply,
Laura
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Mobile Monday: Sweet Dreams

Thursday, Friday, and Saturday I spent sick in bed. I mostly slept. I slept a lot. I don't have photos of this amazingness because well...it wasn't exciting!

When I wasn't sleeping I was thinking. This can be a problem for me because I tend to over-think. The good part about being sick and tired is that you also become sick and tired of yourself.

So I had a dream. I had an amazing dream. I had a very specific dream. I was married to the most amazing man. He wasn't perfect but he was perfect for me. He was a good husband and he was great father. He had a business of his own. He put his family first and he was sweet and romantic. We had 3 children and we were adopting 2 more kids. We were having some problems blending the family but we were working on it and it was getting better. When I woke up, I was amazed at how specific the dream was. I was also shocked because I realized this really was the life of my dreams. This was what I wanted and the reason that none of my prior relationships ever worked out was because those men were not right for ME! Those men couldn't give me what I needed and those men couldn't be the man who would father MY children and have a heart big enough to still adopt. Those men failed me, I didn't fail them. I have been so busy focusing on what is wrong with me that I never recognized the things wrong with all of them. Every one of them while, wonderful people were wrong...for me! I can't tell you how freeing this has been. Yes, I loved one or two of them but my love wasn't enough to make those men right for me and in truth I never should have worked so hard. That was an amazing realization because I could finally stop beating myself up and turn my attention to lifting myself up. It's time to take care of myself. Odd that it took getting sick to realize this. I know in my heart this dream was a gift from God and it came at the perfect time, God's time is always perfect. God knew just how to tell me that His plan is always better in a way that would make me realize why I really and truly deserved to matter in a man's life more than I ever have. I have an amazing amount of love to give and God wants me to give it to the right person. The one who can compliment me not just in my love of baseball or mountain biking but in things that actually matter.

Sunday:

I was finally awake and feeling good enough to make a baseball game and oh, what a game!



It have everything! Yu, Napoli, a lot of strikeouts, a Boomstick, and



it had a walk-off win!


Thank you Adrian Beltre!


Also...sunburn and a sun migraine but who cares about that??

All in all, this was an amazing weekend.

Simply,
Laura
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