What I'm Loving Wednesday Link Up
This week has started out rough. I mean, yesterday I come home to a note that my air conditioner let out a high pitched wail in the middle of the afternoon and I should probably have someone check it. I keep listening to it turn on and off but I hear nothing out of the norm so I will have to schedule an off day to have it serviced and pray. The unit was replaced 4 years ago outside so it is still pretty new. I don't want to live without AC in Texas, for obvious reasons. This morning when I woke up I had a bunch of failed Yahoo emails from about 2am. I wasn't emailing anyone at 2am so I realized right away....something was spaming my address book. Then I got emails and texts from all of my upset friends telling me to please change my password. I hardly ever email anyone unless I am responding to something so really, this just annoys me.
Yesterday I went to Target at lunch to look at Maxi Dresses and I suddenly got baby fever while shopping. There was a lady with a cute little newborn out shopping and the next thing I know, I am looking at dresses that are in the matenity section. I think the whole universe must be upset with me now because I was literally being stared down by bunny rabbits and squirrels this morning as I left my house. I want a baby but I don't want a baby right now. I want the whole package and I am not rushing a relationship with any man to have a baby. I have too many friends who seemed to have happy marriages who are now in the process of breaking up to stick myself intentionally with any man who I am not sure about. (This is not about T by the way. He has been super amazing. This is about me.)
All of that is to tell you....coming up with something I am loving right now is a big stretch but here goes:
*I am loving shopping for girl cloths.
I forgot how much I enjoy dressing like a female.
*I am loving bright colors for summer:
Yellow, Green, and Blue are the staples of my wardrobe but having choices of brights is so nice. I don't feel comfortable in melon or pinks but I love those colors on others.
*I am loving that I am spending Moday and Tuesday at the ballpark next week and that I get to spend it with my mom. She is moving the following weekend and baseball may be the only time I see her this summer.
*I am loving that I get to meet my riding buddy, Khrystal, tonight and get a ride in after work. I may be missing baseball but the Rangers will survive without me.
*I am loving that David Murphy coming in to pitch last night turned a really dull blow out game into something fun.
*I am loving that I have learned how to talk myself off the ledge. Whenever I start to do that totally female thing we do....freaking out about nothing, I talk myself down. I tell myself that nothing means anything and to stop looking for problems. Putting 40 years of insecurities to bed is not easy but I am trying.
*I am loving how strong I feel during the day and I am hoping that starts to translate into feeling strong in the quiet, alone times.
*I am loving that I have someone I actually miss when he is out of town, which is all the time, but that I am also smart enough to know that we both have very busy lives and he will be with me when he can because he wants to be. T doesn't run away from me, he runs to me. That is really nice.
I have never understood the appeal. I do now. When I say that, it has absolutely nothing to do drinking it and everything to do with kissing someone who has. Sweet tea is nice. Kissing isn't TMI, right?
*I am loving that a friend of mine told me the reason the squirrels look at me funny is that I am clearly nuts!
*I am loving my crazy, mixed up, insane life and I can't wait to see what comes next. Even if that includes mad bunnies and squirrels.
Happy Hump Day!